I love you but I've chosen darkness Watkins, Claire Vaye creator author. text novel nyu 2021 2021 monographic eng print 290 pages ; 24 cm. From "the most captivating voice to come out of the West since Annie Proulx" (Vogue), the furious, hilarious, soul-rending story of one woman's reckoning with marriage, work, sex and motherhood. Since my baby was born, I have been able to laugh and see the funny side of things a) As much as I ever did. b) Not quite as much now. c) Not so much now. d) Not at all. Leaving behind her husband, Theo, and their young daughter, Claire, a writer, gets on a flight for a speaking engagement in Reno, not carrying much besides a breast pump and a creeping case of postpartum depression. But what begins as a temporary escape from domestic duties and an opportunity to reconnect with old friends soon mutates into an extended flight from the confines of marriage and motherhood, and a seemingly bottomless descent into the depths of the past. Deep in the Nevada desert where she grew up, Claire meets her ghosts at every turn, the first love whose suicide still haunts her, her father, a member of the most famous cult in American history and her mother, whose native spark dims with every passing year until all that remains is a smoldering addiction. Claire can't go back in time to make any of it right, but what exactly is her way forward? Alone in the wilderness, she finally finds a way to make herself at home in the world. Bold, tender and often darkly hilarious, I Love You but I've Chosen Darkness reaffirms the "brutal kind of beauty" (Los Angeles Times) and "mercilessly sharp" vision (NPR) that established Watkins as one of the signal writers of our time. Claire Vaye Watkins. Postpartum depression Fiction Marriage Fiction Motherhood Fiction FICTION / Family Life / General FICTION / Feminist FICTION / Literary 2000-2099 fast PS3623.A869426 I3 2021 813/.6 9780593330210 0593330218 9780593330234 2021009728 DLC 210302 20220105170212.0 in00004359194